well, i cant slp and guess i start a new blog. just like every failure in life. just gotta let it go and keep moving forward. i think the shifts are finally getting to me. i cant slp at night. struggle to stay awake in the mornings. hyper active thru the night. i'm glad that NS is finally drawing to a close. got a job at zoo in which i guess i'll be spending at least a year as a zookeeper. yes, zookeeper. after which i might head off to sierra leone for a year to work as part of the peacekeeping force for the UN. have you ever had a period of time in which you just feel like releasing all that tension in yourself and just clearing your mind of everything? total tranquility? i've been struggling to get back to the Lord. i just can't find the zeal i used to have. yes, i need a life line. so many problems have cropped up for me since NS started. sometimes i really wonder if i'm an NSman or a regular? apparently, my job scope is much broader than those in the army i guess. yes police isn't that slack. i work on weekends and public holidays too! i face difficult ppl too. i have to swallow a whole lot of outbursts of emotions from memebers of the public while curbing mine and trying to supress and console them. i dare to say that i've learnt alot from the ns life. but even as i answer the call of duty of my country, i'm shocked and saddened that ppl think i'm faking everything. i go to work early in the morning before the sky turns bright and work till it turns dark. i work thru the night too as most ppl slp. henceforth the poster. "the reason why singapore sleeps peaceful" i'm part of the reason too! life indeed is unfair. well, uncertainty lies ahead and it's curiousity that is keeping me alive and going. for all those who are really going thru a tough time but are keeping it under wraps. just one word, PRAY! nothing is too hard. in everything bring it to the Lord. and keep smiling!
"the sufferings of this present time are NOT WORTHY to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us." - Romans 8:18
"If you're going through hell, keep going." - winston churchill
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